psyche...

if only she can admit it using first person terms. If only she can be honest about it. She has been under lockdown for the past 6 months. unable to feel anything else but pain and only occasional delight with her close friends.

it has been real painful for her. but amidst the pain, what she gain was in her job. she was doing real good at it. ironically.

its confusing of course, is this a sign from god, that its just not meant to be? and this is a way of telling her?

for the first 4 months, she thought she have left it behind her. it is still puzzling on what triggered the melt down. must have been the festive season. where gathering happens, people looking happy. she can't help but feeling empty inside. and pain.

what i think, she needs to let it out. keeping it inside is not healthy, i told her, or you will get crazy.

u need a outlet, then you will feel better. u can cry for 3 days 3 nights, and after that u are a new person.

its ok if u wander back sometimes. we all hav this experience. and you need to be honest to yourself.

the truth is, money can't buy happiness. but money seems to be the foundation to achieving happiness these days.

do i want to believe that?

would you want me to believe that?