A Fresh New Start

This is almost what everyone wanted, a fresh new start.

This is what i want too, and hopefully in 3 months time, i will have it.

I've learnt that you are the master of the monster in your heart. You can decide how you want to feel, by always looking at the bright side of things. I m lucky to have alot of friends around me to turn me around when i m looking back.

As you hold so tight what your heart desires, and found that it slips right pass you, what can you do if not always stay happy and focus? Someone taught me a very good lesson in looking forward. Instead of dreading that there is still 3 months ahead, you can think that u only have 3 months and u can leave. And this is a very special person i hold dear in my heart, whom relationship i have no intention to hide anymore.

Hiding is a form of lying, and i think i m tired of it. I was hiding many things i thought i am ashamed of. Lately, i have faced my fear and told the truth which i have been so afraid for anyone to find out. It is the first time i have been so open about it. I felt liberated, light, and the guilt inside me has finally been resolved. It was such a good feeling and i think i have addicted to it. I am feeling so much easier to express myself now and i dun really care what people think of me anymore. Most important that i focus on what i want to achieve and what i want to improve. No point in hanging on to people's opinion. Thoughts is for theirs to think, i cant control and i dun want to. aaaaaaaahhh..... Liberated!!!

We should try to live the life which awes us the most, in movies, in books, in songs, the stories and people whom we look up to. Then you will feel the warmth running through your veins, the passion burning in your heart, and tiredness and fatigue fade away. Finding the courage to face your destiny, gives you such drive which makes you alive. I have finally faced it. It took me 2 years, it still feels unbelievable.

The happiness in you has flow from your actions, your words, your kindness, your patience and your confidence, into my soul. And i m forever grateful that i have met such a wonderful person. So optimistic and wise.

I can never ever imagine how i will be if i dun have you in my life. The things which you prove to me is so precious and pure, just like your intentions, that is why you become such a beautiful person. Not that cute face while you are asleep, while you're cheering when you win, or your eyes when you try to make me smile, its your shining red heart and soul. One who is so honest, straight and generous. That plants a seed and grows into a strong green canopy of a tree.

I write this from my heart. Thank you, & I Love You.