What you thought...

A penny for your thought, or not.

Sometimes people wonder how you can keep a relationship fresh and exciting, year after year with the same person. Even though i was asked this question many times, and i have answered a few of them before, I do not have the definite answer actually.

Sometimes i struggle between going on or to quit. I guess the key is to find the reason to go on. You gotta be sure about this reason. if it is strong enough, it will make you walk very long miles, and not become a quitter. Just lately, this reason is becoming blurrer and blurrer for me day after day. And i m panicking and anxious.

I so hope that i can see some assurance and comfort from your eyes. but i see that your focus is on something else.

its really dissapointing. for what that i've done to seek your attention, but u r not looking. its really frustrating.

my heart sinks. its so heavy now i m feeling hard to carry on.

let the light shed on me and give me the wisdom of how to walk my next step. Let God give me the strength to face all obtacles in front and lead me to pick myself up from scrounding mud.

Oh God, help me please.