The Weather and Heart

Lately it has been raining alot... sharp at 2pm, you will see the cloud shading the sun, and the sky turning dark, and droplets of rain falling down from the sky. As if god has put on his alarm clock to send down his blessings same time everyday.

Reminds me of the days in my hometown, when i am still in school, i would sit by the window when it rains, and listen to my favourite music while the afternoon just pass me by like that.

The weather somehow reflects our mood as well, when the weather here changes so dramatically, it might affect us to feel good in the morning and turn a 360 degrees towards the afternoon.

I remember in my college days, I also used to sit on my 9th floor balcony with Sonic, each holding a cup of hot tea, sitting down and just enjoying the cool breeze and each others company.

Just like how i am sitting now in the cool breeze, where the temperature is dropping outside, but the smile of my friends around me warmth the atmosphere around, and lighten up my heart. If you listen carefully, you will hear the tree leaves caressing each other as the wind flows. The soft whisper made a voice that tickles my ears, it is one of those marvelous things on earth where i think god place it there for us to admire and share.

Just watched the late Micheal Jackson's rehearsal documentary 'This is it'. His spirit and passion, i believe, will be stil lingering around us for a long time, inspiring more and more people to carry on his believes, like the one he so strongly felt when he wrote the song 'Man in Mirror', He is always a Legend and will forever be in our hearts.

I GOT A LAPTOP!!!

My company just handed me a laptop... not so much the brand i wanted... but it was a fairly new one... omg... i feel so grateful.. i was just thinking about it... hahahahah... Cheers!

Craze & Crave

The human desire for multiple things drive many of us craze and crave. The many ways of dealing might not be parallel among all, but nonetheless we try to reach somewhere in between.

As I realise not much others can do for you if you don't want to change much yourself. Only yourself can drive your own achievement and success. The believe and support that friends have is absolutely important.

他们说， 如果没能有共识， 再怎么好的朋友又有什么用
说多了， 感情反而冷淡了。
好心被狗担走了。。。
当初的美好日子如今已成为回忆，再也回不来了。
看到你听也不想听， 伤心透了。
醒醒吧， 为什么这么固执?

真难哦。。
你说情未了， 我也望如此。
只能寄予希望与耐性。
好好从远观看。

Everyone needs Love.

First of all, I want to wish everyone in this festive week, Happy Eid!

Today is my 1 month anniversary working in my new pr company. In one month, I have started to gain ownership of what I am doing. ITs such a HAPPY feeeeeeeling. Thinking back of how i have been searching up and low for something that I will have this warm feeling inside.. which ive been longing for so loooong. I am so happy i can cry.

Since i have settle this part of my life, its been unbelievable!

I think i have been very concern abt this corner of my life that when its not there, the whole picture looks incomplete. Doing what you like, and liking what you do, and have a bunch of inspiring, aspiring, exciting and liberating people working together with you also doesnt harm :))
Feeling alive !! ^_^

Feels like i m doing the things that i envy while watching all those japanese movies , the heroes and heroin, working towards their dream, even with all the tears and happiness, and achieving it, the thrill that run through your body, the warmth, while you are at it. Its indescribeable, feel like you are in a song, singing alooooong, the melody and the rhythm, in perfect harmony! such Indulgence.

It feels like I have finally fulfil my own promise to myself, then only the song by Whitney>the greatest Love of all, finally make sense. As, the most important thing that happen to me after this, Love comes easy. Whether its for my beloved family, my beloved friends, or my beloved one. When the part that holds you back has finally been lifted, you face everything and everyone with such lightness; an easiness which soothes your heart. Like time has rewind itself and i can be as happy as a child.

It is now that i understand that everyone have a such in their hearts which needs to be fulfil, like my bestest friends always say, No holding Back! lol..... Go all out, and burn ur passion and live your life to the fulleeeest.

I have been always grateful to all the people around me. I cherish them. Without them I am nothing, All my friends with no means to the order, ainee, Ari, adrian, adrienne, alangira, Ayman, evelyn, fariz, fiona, irene, justin, kamil, kelvin, keong, kit, kweelian, leeping, mahmoud, medo, muli, Sindra, Sonic, rachelle, sereen, shen, tzelerk, wiennie, YingHwei, Yingying, they all have a place in my heart. I am blessed ^_^\/

There is nothing more important to me than to live this life with all of them, and all that is coming. All the good people, good things and good places in this world, I want them in my life. With all the love i have in my heart for them, I truly wish them the bestest life for them in this lifetime if we dun have the next to meet each other. God give them the strength to go through their ups and downs in life with courage, integrity and honesty. And i m sure they will be the happiest ppl on earth.

To Love, Cheers.

I Wish...

I wish i haven't been busybody...

I wish I haven't knew...

I wish i didn't read through what you have told her...

I never thought you would have this feelings for others

I never thought you have so many things u didn't tel me...

I wish i can be the sort of person that I thought i can be.

I wish I can be the person that you can talk freely..

i guess...

My guesses were wrong...

I am not emo!

In contrary to what Ying Hwei has told me over a brief lunch at Sushi King this afternoon,

I AM NOT EMO!

I just had a bad day...

And I lost my phone.....

I am not emo!


But I hope you all the best in ur Aussie trip :)
Have superb fun with you know who ;)

hahhahaha... see? I update my blog d..
I am even soo lazy to write about my missing phone... But I freaking miss my phone so much!
Even though Ayman says maybe is time to change for a new device... lool

haiz... I rly miss my phone actually... I didn't back up anything.. photos, contacts, and also all the smses inside.... haiz... haiz.....

I have to be more careful next time.. this is what I tel myself all the time.. and it still happens..

LOL.... Crisis Management... hahaha.. me and my PR nowadays... I am enjoying my time working now in RAPR... really.. I love the job, my boss and colleagues. HehHeeheh..

ok lar, have a safe trip Hwei, rmb to email and sms me when u can~
Gonna miss u...

I WANT A NEW LAPTOP

Its been awhile since I have sold my HP mini and I am laptop-less for about 2 months now. I am getting deperate!

Apart from saving the money to buy the Fujitsu A1120, i am also waiting for the full package including the backpack and also 3 years international warranty to be offered in the market. Current market price is RM2899 - RM2999. It is soo cheap, especially for the world's Top Brand!

This laptop is relatively light for its large size, especially the wide-screen and hi-colours is a must have for fans of visual entertainment.

I also love the the fact that I can spread my fingers on the keyboard and no need to squint my eyes now for a change. Not that I don't like the HP Mini - its stylish and handy, but I still like to have a lappie which I can sit for hours without sucking my energy.

Who wants to be my sponsor for my new laptop?~ lololololooooooool... pls pls i really miss having a laptop!!!

A Fresh New Start

This is almost what everyone wanted, a fresh new start.

This is what i want too, and hopefully in 3 months time, i will have it.

I've learnt that you are the master of the monster in your heart. You can decide how you want to feel, by always looking at the bright side of things. I m lucky to have alot of friends around me to turn me around when i m looking back.

As you hold so tight what your heart desires, and found that it slips right pass you, what can you do if not always stay happy and focus? Someone taught me a very good lesson in looking forward. Instead of dreading that there is still 3 months ahead, you can think that u only have 3 months and u can leave. And this is a very special person i hold dear in my heart, whom relationship i have no intention to hide anymore.

Hiding is a form of lying, and i think i m tired of it. I was hiding many things i thought i am ashamed of. Lately, i have faced my fear and told the truth which i have been so afraid for anyone to find out. It is the first time i have been so open about it. I felt liberated, light, and the guilt inside me has finally been resolved. It was such a good feeling and i think i have addicted to it. I am feeling so much easier to express myself now and i dun really care what people think of me anymore. Most important that i focus on what i want to achieve and what i want to improve. No point in hanging on to people's opinion. Thoughts is for theirs to think, i cant control and i dun want to. aaaaaaaahhh..... Liberated!!!

We should try to live the life which awes us the most, in movies, in books, in songs, the stories and people whom we look up to. Then you will feel the warmth running through your veins, the passion burning in your heart, and tiredness and fatigue fade away. Finding the courage to face your destiny, gives you such drive which makes you alive. I have finally faced it. It took me 2 years, it still feels unbelievable.

The happiness in you has flow from your actions, your words, your kindness, your patience and your confidence, into my soul. And i m forever grateful that i have met such a wonderful person. So optimistic and wise.

I can never ever imagine how i will be if i dun have you in my life. The things which you prove to me is so precious and pure, just like your intentions, that is why you become such a beautiful person. Not that cute face while you are asleep, while you're cheering when you win, or your eyes when you try to make me smile, its your shining red heart and soul. One who is so honest, straight and generous. That plants a seed and grows into a strong green canopy of a tree.

I write this from my heart. Thank you, & I Love You.

looking forward...

It has been better… since the last post… looking back at what I wrote I was surprise that I was very negative then.

Today I had a training session in our company. We have received a new client and they have actually host trainings for us which our own company did not make it for us. I was feeling the irony of that. Seeing a multinational company handling the organization is really an eye opener for me. Even the manager is making more sense than the one I see every day in my own office.

My colleagues and I have been discussing about quitting for months now. We just can’t stand working with immature people and also the MANAGEMENT which had a wait & see policy. The new client who had came in has really given us an opening to explore more places outside.

I’m so eager now to see beyond my company and spread my wings further. Sitting every day and hoping for changes is insane.

Can't wait....

What you thought...

A penny for your thought, or not.

Sometimes people wonder how you can keep a relationship fresh and exciting, year after year with the same person. Even though i was asked this question many times, and i have answered a few of them before, I do not have the definite answer actually.

Sometimes i struggle between going on or to quit. I guess the key is to find the reason to go on. You gotta be sure about this reason. if it is strong enough, it will make you walk very long miles, and not become a quitter. Just lately, this reason is becoming blurrer and blurrer for me day after day. And i m panicking and anxious.

I so hope that i can see some assurance and comfort from your eyes. but i see that your focus is on something else.

its really dissapointing. for what that i've done to seek your attention, but u r not looking. its really frustrating.

my heart sinks. its so heavy now i m feeling hard to carry on.

let the light shed on me and give me the wisdom of how to walk my next step. Let God give me the strength to face all obtacles in front and lead me to pick myself up from scrounding mud.

Oh God, help me please.

What is My Biggest Dream

I am drown in the pool of choices, lurking in dark water, unsure of the path that lies ahead of me.

Working a routine job waiting for the paycheque end of every month just to spend it before the end of next month... is clearly not working for me.

BUT, i dunno how to get out from my current situation either.. i wanted to see where i can go from here, but i have sooo many different Dreams and direction that i dunno which one is the One.

I like to work in the entertainment industry, i would also like to be a writer, or starting a food business, or bags business, or as tuition teacher, or as a song writer, or work in the PR industry, or start a business related to the global environment... there are tonnes of choices... and i can't make up my mind.

I think the biggest problem is that i dunno what i want. If i can only choose one, among all choices, what would I choose? how come i have no idea

i need to find where my passion lies. But i also dream of being a volunteer for international welfare. i wont mind being a help in warzones or hospitals, or just get involve in projects which service the poor and rural. It would seriously make me happy, to be in service to humanity. If that is really the thing that i wanna do, perhaps i should start in my own community first.

Perhaps i should try to find options around this area. hahaha.. writing a blog about it actualy help me clear up my mind.

Cheers to blogging!

回家

我回家了.

每次在吉隆坡工作, 离家远了, 每每有事想不通就想回家.

家里有妈妈的嘘寒问暖, 处处照顾周到; 有爸爸和蔼地问候, 提案解除困绕; 让心里宽畅许多.

其实有很多事想告诉他们, 可是又怕他们担心, 结果话到嘴边却也吞下了.

想说, 妈, 我谈恋爱了! 可是他不是华人哦~

哈哈哈...真难相象他们脸上会有什么表情!

回到家, 脑里的思绪也减轻了, 感觉天大的困难都能迎刃而解.

亲人是谁也不能取代的. 只有亲人才会永远地在你身边, 不离不弃.

我对这句话, 也开始有深刻地了解与感慨.

父母永远是最靠得住的大伞, 为我们遮风盖雨. 所以呀, 天下的子女, 一定要记住孝顺!!

出外寻活的游子, 要及时懂得体恤他们的心情,

可别让父母在家苦等太久喔!

To: Earth, My Home

One year ago, an act of love of turning off the lights took place in Australia. This year, it blows to a global scale and became the newly launched campaign, dedicated to reduce Global Warming:

60 Earth Hour

Just a few hours ago, I saw an environmental documentary on HBO endorsed by Leonardo Dicaprio (mind you that it is not on Discovery Channel, but HBO!), called The 11th Hour - Countdown to the 12th hour where the crisis will occur.

A few months back I saw on HBO too, The Inconvenient Truth. A documentary featuring Al Gore in his efforts to raise awareness on Global Warming, which he travels personally to all major towns across United States and Europe to do his presentation repeatedly.

All this signs, tells us one thing: The human race is waking up!

It is an exuberating tell-tale sign which lights up our hope now that leaders and celebrities have joined their hands in saving our planet. It is becoming mainstream.

It is conforting that people are starting to care now. Moreover, we are taking solid actions. It is still not too late to save the planet.

Lets get our creative minds moving, who knows next year, our idea will become a full scale global-synchronized marathon!

Dreams

Through our daily mundane routine, there is always our hopes and dreams which drives us towards the future.

Even though I am working everyday now, for a company, taking monthly (chickpeas) salary, I still hope that sooner or later I will work for my own company, setting up my own business, running my own business deals and be busy, happy and rich. That is my ultimate goal.

As time passby, year after year, my value towards life varies and changes.

Money to me is not as important as it is to me few years ago.

Family, Love and Friends. The simple joy in life, make me the happiest person on the planet.

I have lost my interest in climbing ladders, stepping stones and shooting targets.

I have found new light in drawing, music, sports and getting involve in family affairs.

I guess, no money or material in this world can replace the contentment I feel in my heart now.

Let's say if you were ask one question: Would you rather be Single and Rich or Married and Poor.

I have been in similar situations. If you ask me, I would prefer Married and Poor. To find money is easier than finding true love. If you found your true love, keep it strong, and once you make it through, you will be Married and Rich!!! The most important thing is the attitude. If you remain positive, you can stay in any situation and be happy. Just learn to appreciate what you have. Not being greedy, you can be happy anywhere.

I have been reading 'Tuesdays with Morrie'. It talks about life, values, death, love, marriage, society, money..... It gives me alot of different light of looking at life. Learning How To Be Happy, without changing anything, but only the way you look at life.

By reading the book, I want to feel happy. Just Simply.

Cheers!

TAGGED!!!!

Since
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RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any 1 questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people.

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1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- It would be painful, but leaving will be the only option.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
-To experience as many things I can, To love and to be loved in my life.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
- Any butt-licking, trash keeping, blood lying politicians

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- To grow more billions, to do good and make differences in the world, on humanity and the environment.

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
- I don't think so, my best friend is a gurl

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
-Is to indulge in both.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- as long as he loves me.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Be happy, forget about him.

9. What do you pray each day for your loved one?
- I pray the best for him in his life.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
- Lack of respect

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
- Happy, Wealthy, Healthy and Success

12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
- To see somebody

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- A very good friend

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- married but poor, happy and unlonely

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
- Kiss somebody

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- Doing it, living it.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- The one I love most.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- Forgive yes, forget ....maybe

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
- Relationship.

20. Referring to No. 19, what’s the best thing about it?
- LOL.......He is the joy of my life.



I Tag : (all these ppl hvnt been updating regularly)

- Ying Hwei

-Kahmun

-Sonic

-Areee

Simple Things

The Simplest thing in life makes the most happiness in my life.

The morning sun while having a drive, the evening breeze on my face while taking a walk, little little things in our daily life, if you learn to appreciate, you just fill warm inside, for no reason; I will have high respect and also gratitude for God.

There was a simple story told about a teacher teaching his students about life.

The teacher stood in front of his class with a jar on the table.
First, He fill the jar with Golf balls.
Then he asked: "Is the jar full?"
The students answered:" Yes."

The teacher then fill the jar with glass pebbles.
He asked: "Is the jar full?"
The students answered: "Yes."

The teacher then fill the jar with sand, filling in the space even more.
He asked: "Is the jar full?"
The students answered:"Yes."

Lastly, the teacher then produced 2 cups of coffee and poured into the jar.
He asked his class:"Is the jar full?"
"Yes", the students said.

The teacher look at his class through his thick glasses: "So what lessons about life can you learn from this?", the students in the class look at each other and did not say a word.

The teacher spoken:"The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions -- Things
that if everything else was lost and only they remained,
Your life would still be full.."

"The pebbles are the other things that matter like your
job, house, and car."

"The sand is everything else -- The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,'
He continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the
golf balls. The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
you will never have room for the things that are important
to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your
happiness. Play With your children. Take time to get
medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play
another 18.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the
disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that
really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just
sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the
coffee represented.


The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life
may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of
coffee with a friend.'


I love this story, and it will be the philosophy of my life.

I also came across Mark Twain's quote:
'It is better to be quiet and have people think that you are stupid, then to talk and confirmed it'.

I just feel a sense of overwhelming when I read this on the LCD screen in the Teh Tarik Tv in a mamak restaurant. LOL.

Dilemma

I would like to believe that Love Conquers All

I would like to believe that Love heals all souls

I would like to believe that it is easy to forgive

I would like to believe that it is easy to forget

.

I would like to say I am not angry

I would like to say I am not hurt

I would like to say I can forgive

I would like to say I can forget

.

Am I being selfish?

Am I not considerate?

Am I taking things for granted?

Am I taking things too difficult?

.

What is wrong, and

What is right?

.

I look out

I need some guide.

Books and their covers

The old saying goes: Do Not Judge The Book By Its Cover, those who have fully experience this will understand how true is the saying.

It is not very often that we come upon a person that acts and speaks as true as his heart. That is why when we meet one, they can quickly be a close friend. Those who pretend to be true and honest will never go long without being notice. Their camourflage is easily being uncovered when things that doesn't benefit them happen. They will show their spots, their stripes or whatever that they are hiding.

Books that are seasoned can fool people. With a fancy outlook, and disguised in nicely designed fashion, they greet you warmly and give you the impression that they are decent. But god only knows that they are deceiveful and rotten inside. We call them hypocrites. The thing is, you can't recognised them. Why I say this? Isn't it obvious that we can't recognised them? Usually bad people, the selfish, greedy, slimy and grumpy, they will have this written all over their faces, you don't need a lie detector to identify this people. But... the hypocrites, is a deep hole. They have a mountain of strategies and lies within their chests. It will take tedious observation and awareness for you to be able to even start to suspect.

Submerging myself in the working environement of an office, there is no running away from all different personalities. Some are pleasant, some are not. But no matter what, I am happy to learn and gain more experiences where you will never learn under the comfort and protection of your family. Life is tough and rough. Its good to have a little seasoning lining up, opening up a new space and chapter to fill in some colours, may it be bright or dark. Bring it on.

Happy Birthday~!!!

Today is Sonic Gan Tian's 22 Birthday~!!! \(^_^)/~*

Poor gal was stil OTing in the office until 11pm++, i was also workin until 9pm++ ...

When i got home, i logged in to MSN and started to chat with her, she was stil in the office, telling me she dun have plans and stil OTing, wanna go home sleep dead..

Then when i came bk from my bath, she told me that her colleagues throw her a surprise Birthday partaaay for her!!

My first reaction: O MY GOD~!!!! \(^O^)/~~

Where can you find such good colleagues, First, its difficult to have ppl throw surprise party for you, not to mention colleagues, then its a ice cream cake, on top of all, its a Haagen Daz!!!!

She told me her Vice Director asked her to go looked for a copy, then she saw the cake....

I wanna put this happy day down as a record of memory. The day when u celebrate your birthday even though OTing, u had Haagen Daz ice cream cake from your colleagues! :)

What i said stil i kept a promise, make a big wish, i will pray for you it will come true, thats the best birthday gift I can give you now from a faraway land, to help your wish become true.*

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Show & Tell

Feel trapped in the Jungle of City?





Nothing beats a retreat in Cameron

Or just by lightening up the house with some greenery.

With some cute cactus which has different color different size.

or just relax and have some fishy swim around ur legs in fish therapy.

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Just looking forward to another meaningful week.